大嫌い！！！

I don't understand..
Why some people like WTH?!
I hate people who wants others to respect them but they didn't respect other people in the first place..
Isn't it a total bullshyt?

I have a lot of this kind of experience..
With people around me which is very close to me...
I don't know why they have to give other people the priority instead on people like me?
They care more about other people just to give a 'saint' image to them..
But to someone they close to, they never act like a 'saint' like they want in front of the public...
This kind of thing always making me pissed off..

When I care about others feeling, there'll be one or two will said that I'm too straight forward. Thus, they will think that I'm a bad or a mean person..
But then, when I really didn't care about others feeling, the relationship will no longer the same like it used to be..
I can be really annoying and mean when I'm mad or pissed off to the max..
Once I can't no longer hold it, it will become a huge disaster..

From now on, I don't really care what others think of me..
It's up to them..
I know myself better...
I don't want to be treated unfairly..
I will no longer care about others' feelings..
But of course it depends on the situation..
If I think I'm at the right path,what I feel will come first...

No negotiation, no consideration and no second chance...

Can't Focuz

I wonder why recently I can focuz and concentrate when I was praying..
Did I do something huge that makes me cannot concentrate on it???
*Sigh*
I really don' like this..
I need to concentrate so my soul will be at peace and calm..
This is not good..
No, no, no..
Not good, not good...
Sad, sad, sad...

I thought I was Happy~

It was so happening when Jay is around

I thought I was happy to come back Ipoh..
But why last night I felt so lonely and depressed..
Seobseob couldn't come here and Jay from 2PM is not coming back..
We can no longer see the happy and crazy Jay... T.T

Why these sad news is coming to me?
Why, why?
I felt so lonely right now..
Nothing special is coming up...
Wants to go out with friends..
But some couldn't since they got stuff to do...
Some got tests to sit on...

I couldn't reach seobseob..
Maybe she went or on the way to PD...
Or maybe she was depressed and couldn't talk to anyone including me about it..
*Sigh~*

Doing house chores

I woke up early this morning and didn't go back to sleep..

Hahah...

I was so in the mood today and started doing house chores...

I washed the clothes and swept the floor...

Now my house is much more neat and tidy...

Hahahah... XD

Actually not so..

Quite...

My hand was so painful right now because of washing the clothes...

I didn't use washing machine since we don't have one here...

I have to use the brush..

Gosh, it's really painful..

This is how generation before us feel the pain without any technology advance like us nowadays...

After that I take bath..

Then, I went to the kitchen and cooked the rice for lunch today...

I still haven't breakfast this morning and I am so hungry right now.. ;))

Hahahah... XD

I am going back to Ipoh this evening..

Really can't wait anymore..

I miss my cat and friends in hometown..

And not to forget, I hope this Sunday will be a successful day for seobseob..

Onegai, onegai~~...

I guess I need to eat something now..

Maybe Kitkat or Mr. Potato or Butterscotch...

Oh, oh, my rice crackers..

Still got three packets left...

Hahah..

Wait for me Cici~~~~

XD

Bloggie~ ^^

Hahah..

I didn't submit any post for one day yesderday..

No recent interesting things happened..

Ah~

I've been Mr. Potato this few weeks..

I don't know why..

But I don't like the barbeque flavor...

I prefer hot n spicy flavor..

Much more nicer.. XP

I rather eat this than other things..

I also have been eating rice crackers recently..

So nice..

My friend told me that the results will be coming out on the 11th of March..

Not sure whether it's true or not..

But she was told by her teacher about the date of the results out..

Oooww...

Kowaidesu...

So scary~~

Last night, I chat with seobseob..

I told her bout Min's plan if I go to KL this Sunday..

Min was so dissapointed when she knew that Seobseob is going somewhere this Sunday..

Seobseob felt the same too..

She kept on sending this symbol 'T_________T'...

Hahah..

A crying face..

Seobseob said that she will ask her mother and will tell one of us if her parents allow her to go..

But she has to stay in Ipoh for about a week..

We'll wait and see what's going to happen soon.. ^^

Bullshit!

Today was a total bullshit!

2 hours driving lesson sucks!!

Hate it, hate it, hate..

I know I'm a slow learner..

Agrh~!!

I don't know how to write this..

I feel like crying right now and also feeling like wants to chop and smash somebody...

Why I have to face all this kind of thing?

Gosh, this thing really makes me BURNING in the inside..

I don't want to go through this anymore..

I do know who can I tell this matter to..

At least it can make me feels a bit relieved and calm..

T.T

Can't no longer write about it anymore..

I'm so sad right now..

Eww~~

See, so disgusting !! Uwekk~

I woke up this morning and directly go to bath..

After that I wear my shirt and shorts..

I open my room door and I saw something at the door ensel (??)...

Then I go near to it and eeww~~

It was a smashed lizards..

Uwekk !

Aiye, it was very disgusting..

Every time I think about it, it make me wants to puke..

Arghh~!!

Just now, my dad asked whether to go KL or not next Sunday on the 28th..

I'm not sure whether to go or not..

I think it's a good chance to meet my seobseob sister..

But I'm not sure whether she'll be glad or happy if I decide to go there...

Arghh~!!

This is the only chance and I don't know what do to..

Darega, tasukete yo~!!

I haven't tell seobseob sister yet..

Yesterday, I told her the plan, but she seemed like, 'Oh, u want to come?'..

It's like she deosn't want me to come..

Gosh, I hope it's just my thoughts..

Not her..

If not, then I'm very sad~~ T.T

Very seobseob..

Oh, oh..

Last night I 'sms' my old friend..

Hahah..

XD

I'm so happy..

I was searching her number from my other friends..

Finally, I got it !!

Wah, I still remember when we were form 2 at the tuition center..

It was so funny every time I recalled the memories.. ^^

I hope I can meet her again..