Life...

Life can be so harsh and tough..

Everyone's life is harsh and tough..

I don't know what to say here..

But recently so many things happened...

Although it gives me new experiences and being more mature, I just don't know what to say bout it...

It just happens like that..

Some people can tell most of their friends bout their secrets or personal life..

But I don't..

I don't know what kind of person am I...

Do I look mysterious, blur, arrogant, or annoying?

Some people said that am kinda mysterious, some said am so blur...

Haih..

I don't know..

Sometimes, I really want to tell people what or how I feel...

But I just couldn't trust anyone so easily..

Even my close friends...

Coz sometimes, when I told them, they don't seem to understand it..

Means it didn't reach my expectations for them to understand or at least give me support..

I know, we can't satisfy everyone..

But so far, I never found people who really understand me...

I mean as a friend...

True friend..

I haven't found my true friend...

I also never tell people about my family to anyone...

But it's a big lie if I never tell, I told them..

Only the surface...

A very thin layer..

If I tell, I will tell someone that don't know me or never meet me..

And tonight, i feel like i was being cheated...

Actually, it's my fault...

I don't know why am I feeling happy when being friend with this person..

I just knew that this person treated everyone just like this person treated me...

I should't have this kind of feeling..

Totally hate it...

That's why I said I don't want to trust people so easily...

Sometimes I feel so lonely..

I always stared at one part for long time...

I always think..

I don't know what am I thinking..

Bout life? Myself, perhaps...

Relationship...

They are so many relationships..

Friendship, love relationship, family relationship and etc. etc.

But what is the meaning of these relationships???

I haven't see the real meaning of these relationships thingy..

There is one or two friends of mine that kinda care of me, kinda understand me, kinda give support to me..

I just knew them here, in my new place...

Sometimes, I want to tell them how or what I feel..

But I just couldn't..

I prefer that am the only one know about it as a human...

I just can think bout it..

I have Allah...

I always think about Him too...

I always remind myself am not alone..

I have Him..

Haih..

So emo tonight...

Sorry bloggie..

I should have posted nice thoughts or experiences I went through...

Gute nacht, bloggie..

Write again some other time, when I have some time for you...

Danke..