Last post... Perhaps(?)

Picture that makes me feel full with nostalgia... =)

Ooohhuuu~~
This might be the last post before I go back to the college..
Huuwwaaaa~~ D;
I don't want to go back there..
Why time flies so fast when I'm at home but so slow when at the college???

Ok, ok..
Anith..
Relax..
Don't think to much and don't follow what or how you feel...
Remember..
I go there to study, to learn some parts of Ilmu Allah..
Betulkan niat anda..
The intention to study must be true and sincere because of Allah..
InsyaAllah..
Berjaya hidup dunia akhirat..
Amin... ;)

Alhamdulillah..
I feel a bit relax now..
Last night, I watched 2 Days 1 Night..
Last week too...
I know that Kim C already quit(?) from 2 Days 1 Night...
But where's Mong??
Why he's not on the show???? 0,o
Last week, I've been recalling who was one more person missing on the show...
Well, since I've been staying at the hostel, I don't have the chance to watch them..
Just this semester holidays I got to watch them..

I miss the laugh and joy I used to have before I go to college..
I miss to watched my favorite shows on TV..
But it's ok..
Study first..
After that, I can watch as much as I want..
Hahahah...
I really miss my hometown so much...
Last Thursday, I went out with my friends..

Hahahha..
It was so much fun..
We watched movie and karaoke until late evening..
Heheheh...
We're totally sing out loud until we were so exhausted and our throats were painful..
But we have the satisfaction, at least.. ;)

I hope someday, before this world ends...
I want to meet all my friends..
Especially my close friends during high school in form 3..
All of us, hangout together and having good times again like we used to be...
Until we meet again..
With lots of love.. from me... to my beloved friends... ;)

Waiting

I wish I could have this album...
I don't think there is any of them in Malaysia..
Huhu..
His songs are nice and I really like it..
His album is not that expensive, it only costs $15, which is around RM30++...
I've sent him an email..
But he hasn't read yet, I guess..
If he reads mine, hope he can give me the songs..
Or maybe how can I get his album..

Snapple

Snapple, it's a product. Drinks products. Tea and Juice. I like it's motto which is 'The Best Stuff on Earth', and it is. It is the best stuff or drinks I've ever taste. Actually it is my first time drinking from this product. My dad bought it for him to drink when we went to One Utama last Tuesday. He saw it and bought it. I didn't try it on the first day we bought it. So it had been in the fridge until this evening. I was finding something to eat and drink. I open the fridge and saw this Snapple and decided to try it. It was mango flavor juice and I don't really like mango juice. But then when I tried it just now, it was WOW!! Delicious! It is the real taste of the mango drink and the taste is not the same as the other mango juice from other products. It was written on the label on the bottle no preservatives, no colorings. Inside of it's cap there is a health fact. It's very good, besides from drinking the juice we can know the health fact. I love this drinks, and hoping I'll find it somewhere in my hometown supermarket. ^^ Totally 'Mango Madness' !! xD




Okay, now we talk about something else. Just now my brother watched Justin Bieber's music video, Baby. Gosh, he's just 16 years old. When I heard his voice for the first time, I deadly thought he was a girl or a woman, but he is a BOY!! This is not the main idea what I want to write. What I want to write here is about Jayden Smith. He's so cute.. Arrgghhh!! I like him when he acted in the Karate Kid. Okay, maybe you guys are wondering what's with the Bieber earlier and Jayden. I saw Bieber's video sings featuring Jayden. WooHoo~~ I didn't listen and watch that video, it's just making me excited when I saw Jayden's name. I'm sure he'll be super HOT when he grown up. Ehee~ ;D

Owh, owh. By the way, just to inform that I made a new blog. It's about Arashi, top boy band in Japan. For now, there isn't any post about them, I just did some decoration to the blog. What was already in the blog is only the header and the background.. Hehe.. It may take sometime to start or to think what to post on that blog. I made it because, I just like Arashi so much and am hoping they'll come here, in my country.. They did Asia Tour but only in Japan, Korea and Thailand if I'm not mistaken.. But why not Malaysia??? There are their fans here.. D; I sent a letter to them, but I don't know whether they got it or not. It's just so hard or impossible for them to get it or read it.. What can I do... );

New blog link>>> http://arashitenshizora.blogspot.com

It's been quite a long time...

It's been quite a long time since the last time I updated my blog..
Just got back home from college last Tuesday...
Gosh, time flies so fast..
Today is already Thursday..
I thought today was Wednesday which is yesterday...

I just don't want to go back to the college..
I just don't really like it there..
I don't know why...

I just know this one singer...
His songs are nice..
Acoustic songs of his..
His name is Andy Six..
But not Andy Six [Andy 6] from Black Veil Brides [BVB]...

Andy Six from BVB

Black Veil Brides

Not the above Andy Six I mentioned earlier..
This band, I don't know...
Andy, he's cute but his band and his style scares me..
I'm so sorry to all their fans, no offends..
Maybe because of their style..
The emo style..

Anyway, back to Andy Six that I mentioned in the first place...
I don't think he's as famous as BVB...
But I like his songs..
Especially 'Don't know where to go' song..
I really enjoyed it... ^^

I hate this !

Why is this happening to me??
Why must it be like this??
It's totally humiliates me...

I just wanna help my friend...
Why must ask something from them???
Why? Why? Why???
Stupid !!!
>=?

Can't take it off from my mind...

I still remember this one guy face I saw at Mid Valley few weeks ago..
He's just so cute...
OMG !! He's cuter when he laugh and smile..
What a great moment I captured at that time..

His body size is kinda small, tall...
His ears is kinda big.. Heheheh...
I think he got twin brother...
Coz that other guy also look almost like him..
If he was not his twin then he might be his sibling...

But obviously that kind of guy already have a girlfriend...
It always like that...
Wish I could meet him again...
Even from far...

F**** !!!

Last night I was searching something on the internet..

Hahahah..

It was funny after we found it...

We're so nervous and excited...

Supposed she's the only one should feel that, I don't know why I feel it too..

Heheh...

Cannot tahan btul...

Today, the sky is gloomy...

Am gloomy too..

I don't know why..

I try to make myself happy but sometimes I just couldn't..

Another thing came up..

Shoot, shoot, shoot !!!!!

I hate this, I hate this, I hate this...

Why is this happening to me??

Why? Why? Why???

I'm making people around me sad and in pain..

My heart is so painful !!

The timing is always wrong...

Am always in the wrong time at the wrong place!!!

Why? Why? Why??

I'm so stressed up !!!

Life...

Life can be so harsh and tough..

Everyone's life is harsh and tough..

I don't know what to say here..

But recently so many things happened...

Although it gives me new experiences and being more mature, I just don't know what to say bout it...

It just happens like that..

Some people can tell most of their friends bout their secrets or personal life..

But I don't..

I don't know what kind of person am I...

Do I look mysterious, blur, arrogant, or annoying?

Some people said that am kinda mysterious, some said am so blur...

Haih..

I don't know..

Sometimes, I really want to tell people what or how I feel...

But I just couldn't trust anyone so easily..

Even my close friends...

Coz sometimes, when I told them, they don't seem to understand it..

Means it didn't reach my expectations for them to understand or at least give me support..

I know, we can't satisfy everyone..

But so far, I never found people who really understand me...

I mean as a friend...

True friend..

I haven't found my true friend...

I also never tell people about my family to anyone...

But it's a big lie if I never tell, I told them..

Only the surface...

A very thin layer..

If I tell, I will tell someone that don't know me or never meet me..

And tonight, i feel like i was being cheated...

Actually, it's my fault...

I don't know why am I feeling happy when being friend with this person..

I just knew that this person treated everyone just like this person treated me...

I should't have this kind of feeling..

Totally hate it...

That's why I said I don't want to trust people so easily...

Sometimes I feel so lonely..

I always stared at one part for long time...

I always think..

I don't know what am I thinking..

Bout life? Myself, perhaps...

Relationship...

They are so many relationships..

Friendship, love relationship, family relationship and etc. etc.

But what is the meaning of these relationships???

I haven't see the real meaning of these relationships thingy..

There is one or two friends of mine that kinda care of me, kinda understand me, kinda give support to me..

I just knew them here, in my new place...

Sometimes, I want to tell them how or what I feel..

But I just couldn't..

I prefer that am the only one know about it as a human...

I just can think bout it..

I have Allah...

I always think about Him too...

I always remind myself am not alone..

I have Him..

Haih..

So emo tonight...

Sorry bloggie..

I should have posted nice thoughts or experiences I went through...

Gute nacht, bloggie..

Write again some other time, when I have some time for you...

Danke..

I just don't get it...

I just don't get it why people around me are acting like this...

Hmmmph...

Last week, I told one of my group mates that I won't be able to do the terrarium at first...

Suddenly, they started to sound and try to tell that they have been pissing off with me..

Ok, fine..

I think I'm at fault, so I'll do it..

I did the terrarium thingy with so much tension...

I really feel so stressed up at that time...

And guess what...

Today, this evening, they decide to choose whose one is the best...

They asked to meet at the cafeteria..

I went there..

And guess what again...

They didn't even do the terrarium thingy..

Gosh, I thought they had done just like what I have done...

But they didn't do anything actually..

They just bought or brought the plants in a VASE !!

Can you imagine it???

I expected that they had done it just like what i did...

Gosh, I was so wrong..

And it kinda makes me feel so bad for myself of course...

They want my pebbles..

Of course I don't feel like giving them coz they ONLY want the pebbles...

I susah2 tanam pokok tu walaupun not so worth it.. =.=

Aigoo~

And tonight's problem is that I can't listen to hitz.fm which there is an interview with Tokio Hotel !!!

Fish !!

The frequency in my room can't reach..

Not only hitz but all the radio station...

S!

Gosh, I've been waiting for this...

Shoot, shoot, shoot !!!

Why is this happening to me??

First the fucking MTV WS..

And now the interview...

Hmmmpphh...

Huhu..

I'm so burning inside me right now..

Chillax...

Cool down, cool down..

>=(

Tokio Hotel und Devilish

Recently I've been listening to their songs..

They're just so cool..

I love their songs... ^^

I've influenced one of my friend to like them..

Heheh..

And it was a huge success..

He was addicted to Tokio Hotel !!

WooHoo~~~

Hahaha...

Gosh, I'm so frustrated until I can no longer feel it...

I was being cold to my parents..

Don't always talk to them because they didn't allow me to go to WS..

I know I'm being childish..

But I'm not a kid anymore...

And this is bout my life..

My fun life..

Everything's gone in second..

I hate that, really..

And besides, they talk as if they know everything bout entertainment world..

What they know bout it..

All they know is only bout politics and other stuff !!

Same thing happened again..

Last time I want to go to TVXQ's concert so badly..

My parents said, "Ala, sure they'll come back"..

SO ironic..

Now, they'll never come back anymore..

I tried to calm myself by listening to Tokio Hotel songs..

And it works !!

Totally works !!

Every time I listen to Bill's voice, Tom's playing the guitar, Georg's playing the bass and Gustav's playing the drum...

It's just so perfect !

When I have my own money and have a good job..

I will definite go to their concert, no matter in Asia or Europe..

I'll fly to German..

Become their concert sponsor, perhaps... =)

Hehehe..

I try my best to make it happens... ^^

Quote of the day:

"If you can dream it, you can do it. - Walt Disney"

Worst dream I've ever had..

The worst dream I've ever had in my life...

This is so stupid !

I hate that dream so much...

I dream of going to a mall and went to a CD store..

Coincidently that time, they were giving the MTV World Stage golden passes and tickets..

Gosh, it was horrible..

I was damn lucky in the dream to get both golden passes and the tickets.

Zulyna was there too..

She was lucky like me too..

Both of us got it..

I was screaming in happiness but suddenly I woke up..

This is stupid !

Why must I have that kind of dream???

I don't know why, but I'm very sensitive with this topic..

Recently I have mood swings..

I get angry and moody suddenly without giving warnings..

I don't smile always..

I always did something stupid like just now..

I want to dry my clothes outside, I brought the pail and the hanger outside but didn't bring the clothes..

So many things played in my mind..

Very disturbing...

I started to hate my life..

To hate my college life..

And to hate my family also..

I don't know why..

I feel so depressed and stressful..

I want to be alone..

Sometimes I want to live alone...

Without anyone out there helping me..

People don't really want to help you when you have problems and so on..

But when you don't want to help people, they'll say you're mean and bad things bout you..

What can I do about it..

Just ignore and leave me alone..

Sometimes I don't need anyone by my side..

I prefer my pillows and comforter beside me and my mp3 player rather than anyone else..

Lunch

Just finished my lunch..

Today's dishes are simple..

We're having vegetables, fried fish, fried chicken and the best food ever sambal tempoyak...

OMG !!

Tempoyak is the best thing I've ever taste..

Oishii desu~~~

Wee...

Heheh....

So that's all for now..

There's no other interesting topic to bring up yet..

Stay tune... =P

Tokio Hotel

Bill Kaulitz

They just arrived Malaysia...

I have a mix feelings..

=(

=)

Bored...

I don't know why everyday is just the same like other day...

So boring..

Nobody to talk to, to laugh together, to cry together, to smile at each other...

This is so sad..

Horrible and terrible..

I don't have the mood to do all the assignments here..

I can't feel the determination in me..

I feel sad that I couldn't go to World Stage..

That's the worst of all..

Can't meet Tokio Hotel..

Can't see Tom play the guitar..

Can't see Bill sing on the stage...

Live.....

I hate my life...

I can't sit still for one more single day..

I've been waiting here something to live and die for...

Let's run and hide...

I just love those line..

I can feel it deep inside my heart and soul...

This evening I watched Dream Team..

Hahahah...

The funniest episode I've ever watched in Dream Team..

There were KBS News Sportcaster, Gag Concert Crews and other not-so-veteran artists...

Hahah..

Playing Face Soccer World Cup..

Jinon and Junho are so cute.. xD

Hehe..

That was the only moment I don't feel bored... =P

I laughed so hard that time..

xD

I miss my friends...

Some of them are just so far from me..

Some are near but are not able to see each other...

Aiya~

Why so emo la today... =.=

A freak of nature..

Stuck in reality...

I don't fit the picture..

I don't know what you want me to be, sorry..

All i feel is strange...

I feel so absurd in this life..

OMG ! OMG ! OMG !! Bloggie~ i miss you so much.. ♥

Gosh, it has been few months since the last time i updated my blog...

Owh~~ i miss you so much bloggie...~~ ♥ ♥ ♥

So much things had happened these few weeks back..

Too many things to tell but won't be able to write... =)

So sorry..

Just a recent review about upcoming MTV World Stage..

Am so desperate to go..

Still don't have the tix..

But people got offer or want to sell them to me..

I don't know what will happen next..

I really want to meet Tokio Hotel in person..

Want to see, talk, touch them..

Laugh with them..

Wants to see the smiles on their faces...

Hot and sexy Tom, cute and gorgeous Bill...

Love them so much... ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥

Quote of the day :

"In every job that must be done there is an element of fun" Mary Poppins

Yok !! xD

Although it's blur, at least four of them were in the picture.. =P

All of us + Balqees Kadar[invisible] ^^

Hello, bloggie and my dear readers...
Today's post might be the last one before i go to the matrix which is on this monday... ^^
Not really the last one, it's just that i won't be available to update my posts..
I'm sure i'll be very very busy once i got into the college..

Actually, I'm kinda scared going to the college..
I'm not use to stay in boarding schools..
But I hope everything will be okay and run smoothly..
I really need to concentrate on my studies there..
Wish me luck then.. ^^

I need to start collect money for the upcoming concert of Tokio Hotel..
I'm totally obsessed about them..
Their songs are just totally AWESOME !! xD
I'll definitely go to their concert no matter what happened..
Insyaalah..
It's just that I really want to see and meet them...

Owh ! Just remember..
I went to their concert last week.. ^^
It was AWESOME !!
I love them..
They totally rock the stage that night..
But then I felt a bit sad and regret coz i didnt get their autograph and attend the meet and greet session...
Aih~

I'll miss all my friends once i go to the college..
Especially those who always hangout with me, share the same interests with me, the laugh and tears we share together... ^^
I'm sorry if I hurt your feelings before...
Halalkan makan minum kita..
Terima kasih kerana meluangkan masa bersama2...
Thank you so much for the time we spent together..
Hahah..
It seems as if we won't see each other again.. XD

But what I wrote here comes from the bottom of my heart..
Really... =)
I'm gonna miss Ipoh so much..
Hope I can get new friends that will accept me as the way I am..
Just like my friends accept me today... ^^

Just now, I chat with Yee Mei..
Hahah..
It was so funny..
But I like it...
I like it very much when she told me about horoscope thingy..
I just had a clear view on who I am..
My personality..
Heheh... ^^
I won't forget about it...
ぜったいに。。。=)

Sometimes, I always think negatively..
I don't know why..
I don't want to think like that..
There are so many things inside my head...
Aih~
Really don't know what to do...
Bersabar jela..

I knew few new friends recently..
They're very nice..
I got new pan pal from overseas..
Not really a pan pal..
Hahah...
Two of them I knew from facebook..
Both of them are guys..
A complete stranger to me at the first time... ^^
But now we're very good friends..

This guy which is not the overseas guy, he added me because i sent him a message..
It was a funny beginning for us... XD
Hakhaks...
The second guy [from overseas], we got the same interests...
He's kind..
And he has the same age as me...
He always shares with me, info, musics and so on... ^^

I guess this is the longest post i've ever post in my blog..
So i guess until here for today.. ^^
Hope we can meet again soon, bloggie.. =)
And my friends too...
Gonna miss my girls so much... =)
Hugs and Kisses everyone.. ^^
Good night..
Gute Nacht..
おやすみ。。。
안녕계세요...
Selamat malam.. ^^

OMG~ I'm so nervous + excited right now.. 0.o

Argghh !!
I'm so nervous + excited right now...
Tomorrow is the concert day...
Aigoo, aigoo~

Tokio Hotel already in Malaysia...
Argghhh !!
I heard that Gustav is sleeping now...
The girl fans were screaming at the airport when they arrived...
And because of this, the organizers were pissed off + angry...

Alamak, biasala kalau fans jumpa idol die...
Itupun nak marah...
Mentang2 la die organizers tu and can be with so near with Tokio Hotel members...
Macam ape je..
Ish...

Awesome, awesome...
I can't wait to meet them...
Argh ! Argh !
I was a bit shaky when I wrote this post...
Hahah...
As is I need to go somewhere I never go before...
Hahah...
Calm down, calm dowm...
Arrgghhh~~ !!!!!!
I can't !!! XD

One word : AWESOME !!

Awesome project !!
I can hear our VOICES !!
Me and my friends' VOICES !!
Argghhh~~!!! XD

Happy Together 3 [해피투게더3]

Last night I watched Happy Together 3 on KBS World..
Hahah..
I laughed the most last night...
Last night show was a BIG HIT !!
대박, 대박!

Last night guesses were Hyeomin and Jiyeon from T-ara, Hong Rokgi, Pyo Inbyeong, and Hyeongbin the trot singer...
Hahah...
Myeongsu was so funny yesterday..
He kept on teased Jiyeon and Hyeomin...
Aiyo~

And Rokgi !!
OMG~~
I really like him..
I used to watched him on Star Golden Bell last time..
But now he's not the permanent guess there anymore...
Hahah..
I was so happy when I saw him was one of the guess..
He indeed was very funny yesterday...
He did a sexy post and everyone was kinda shock when they saw that..
Heheh..


Anyway, today is Wooyoung's birthday...
Happy Birthday Wooyoung, may God bless you always..
Good luck in your future undertakings.. ^^
And I'm sorry to Jay for not wishing him Happy Birthday in my blog..
Happy Belated Birthday, Jay !!
We love you...
Hahhaha...

Me and my friends got sent the audio message to Jay..
I hope he'll receive it..
Although he don't know us, I still hope he will remember what we did in the audio, forever..
영원히。。。=D

Tokio Hotel

WooHoo~~
Tokio Hotel ROCKS !!
My friend won Tokio Hotel's concert tickets and I'll be going to the concert with her..
This is awesome..

Nowadays, I was fan girling with Tokio Hotel..
I can't control myself from being too excited every time I watch their videos or talk about them with my friend..
Hehehe..

I really can't wait to meet them..
I need to buy the latest talbum so that I will be able to get their autograph during the fan sign session...
OMG ! OMG !
Argh ! Argh !

Most of my friends know that I was crazy over Tokio Hotel..
Hahah...
What they can do is, layan je la minah ni..
Hahah..
Even seobseob donsaeng layan jela..
Hahah..

Can't wait to write about the concert this Saturday on my blog..
Wait for the day to come, bloggie~
Heheh....

Cinderella's Sister aka Cinderella's Stepsister [신데렐라언니]

Last night I watched this drama at KBS World..
Wah~
I really love this drama although I just watched episode 1...
I really like Moon Geun Yeong's dramas or movies...

I don't think I will be able to watch it until the end of the episode at KBS World..
I will be going to matrix next month...
But then, I'll watch it online when I got some free time..
Hahah...

This drama was Taecyeon from 2PM first drama...
He only will appear on episode 5 onwards...
I see...
I wonder how he acted..
Hahha...

The main male character in this drama is so cute !!
Argghh !!!
Cheon Jeongmyeong !!!
Yesterday, when he fetched Geun Yeong to go to his boss' house, he smiled at her when they met..
OMG !!
His smile in that scene is priceless...
I screamed when I saw he smiled...
Arggh ! Argghh !

He smiled sincerely..
I can tell just by looking at his face and his smile...
WooHoo~~
대박, 대박!!

I can't wait to watch episode 2 tonight..
Argh !
Hope I don't forget..
Hehe...

Let's Go Dream Team Season 2 [출발 드림팀 2]

Woah~
I watched Dream Team just now...
Woah~
The team was amazing especially Sangchu and Junho from 2PM..

I was just like them [the team] watched their match in awe..
The other teams' expressions are also my expressions...
Hahah...
When they said "WOW", I also said wow..
Hahah..
So funny..

But Sangchu is just like his nickname..
The Monster Athlete..
He was a total Monster..
Hyuu~


Junho was good too..
He can run very fast..
Aww~~
That's cool...
He has flexible body, he has speed..
Hahahah...
XD
I like..
Kekeke..

When they need to have compete 100m run, I was hoping Junho can win the first place...
But of course, no one can beat the monster...
Junho was at the third place..
He could be in the second place..
But he seemed to slow down as he saw Minho fell..

Aww~~
That was very kind of him...
He couldn't left his friend behind like that..
So sweet~

Anyway, I, who just watching them on television, totally made me nervous..
Even though I 'm not the person who need to do the running, I still feel nervous..
Aigoo~
Hahah..
Nervous who will be the ace of the event...
Kekeke..

Dream Team is always the best as it is..
But I prefer they compete with other teams rather than individual match..
Means like the earlier event they did..
They competed with the baseball team, the soldiers and athletes...
To me, it's more cool and awesome to compete with someone from other industries...

Poor Danny..
He was so sick..
I can see his face was so pale..
But he still try to do his best on the individual event...
Fighting ! Fighting !

I feel bad...

Last night, aroung 2.20 a.m I received a message from my friend..
At that time I just was about to sleep and when I heard my message ringtone, I talked to myself, "Sape pulak yg mesej time2 mcm ni?"..

So I took my hand phone and read the message...
I saw my friend's name on the screen and really didn't expect to get this kind of message from her..
After I read it, I felt really bad..
I feel that all this happened to her was my fault..
I kept saying on her to do it...

Aih~
I'm so sure she's sad right now...
Still find it hard to accept what had happened although she expected it to happened...
Argghh ! I'm so guilty..
I felt so guilty...
Oh, I sorry my friend...
So sorry...
Hope you can overcome this...
すみません。。。*bow*

If you need shoulders to cry on, I can lend you mine...
Anytime, anywhere you want..
Hope you will be strong.. =)

Imaginations

I love to imagine something nice happens to me..
But of course the imagination is impossible to happen in reality...
Kekeke...

Just now I was chatting with seobseob donsaeng...
She sent me a file..
It was a picture..
Seobseob Ssanti Banner...
A banner for her seobseob fanfic...

Sometimes, I really like reading these fan fiction thingy..
But depends on my mood..
Once I read it, I can't stop..
I need to finish reading the story..
Hahah..
Especially if the story line is very well conduct..

I like to imagine...
Sometimes I feel like my imaginations are so nice [Ceh, puji diri sendiri plak]..
I maybe good at imagining things but I'm not good at expressing the imaginations with words...
I suck at it..
And my English is horrible too...

Sometimes I really envy to those who can write very well..
They know how to express it with words..
They can make the readers feel the story..
Aih~
I think I'm good at nothing...

I'm not good with socializing, social networking and etc. etc.
Some people might not be good at socializing with people in reality but they are very good with social networking..
They can attract readers or people to be their friends..
Not like me...

Sometimes I feel like people easily get irritated with me...
That is what I feel...
I don't know what the reality is..
Sometimes I feel left out too...
Like no one knows about my presence or I'm like a stranger..

Hahah..
So much negative thoughts...
Aih~
No good, no good...
I should not think about this kind of thing..

But there's no harm to write about it..
I didn't mention anyone specifically..
Or write something bad about other people...
I just want to write...
That's all..
Just like what I wrote at 'About Me' section..
To write what I feel in this blog.. ^^

I better go to bed...
It's almost 1.25 a.m...
Good night, bloggie~.. =)
おやすみなさい。。。
*yawn*

*Scream*

Just now, when I entered the bathroom to brush my teeth, I, again accidentally touched a cockroach... @_@
I was about to open the water tap and didn't realize its presence on the tap...
I screamed in the bathroom..
Luckily it was not loud enough for other people to hear it...

I hate it when it happens...
I really don't like all the insects thingy especiall the crawling and flying insects...
They are so scary like hell !!
I don't understand why these organisms must come into our house where they supposed to live outside the house...
I mean like on the trees or somewhere where there is no people...

Eww~~
Phobia, phobia...
Why la these creature must exists?
If they exist to eat something that people won't eat or anything then it's okla..
But don't disturb people's life, my life especially...

EEEeeiiii~~
Some more they have very weird smell...
@_@
Go away, go away~
I don't disturb you so don't come near me or I use my secret weapon to destroy you..
@_@